I feel like I’m destine for disappointment for the rest of my life. I feel like matter what I try to do I will never have the love I want and long for. I feel sad and alone. Though I have people that love me, it’s just not what I want. I’ve spent so long trying to never love again that it feels like it has taken over me. My heart brakes as I am writing this. A feeling I’ve never wanted to feel again. I feel stranded out to sea with no signs of life in sight. For I know the one I love is out there, waiting. But my damaged soul won’t let me love. I’m in need of someone that can just accept that I’m a damaged person that wants to just be loved. But I foresee that will be a long rough road that isn’t going to come easy. But I’m willing to struggle to get there. I’m willing to just let things be as they be. Why did I fall in love with someone I can’t be around. To show everyday how happy they make me. To show just how much they mean to me. To show that they are everything I want. My heart breaks for I feel I am for ever destine to be alone.